Finally!

It's a breakthrough.  A couple of years back I underwent a horrible experience, one that I would not wish upon the worst person in the world. It made me stop dancing. I blamed it. I hated it.

The thing about being here in Japan is that I am a million miles away from the place where it happened. I don't have to worry about that person being here. I am safe and I can be myself. Japan brings out me.

I am starting to dance again. I am teaching people. My host mom understood and she danced with me. It was awesome. I can finally listen to the music without wanting to throw up or curl up into a ball.

And it's only week 2...

Change

Japan is so amazing. I'm finding out so much about  myself. Some of these things I did not even know existed. I have tried fugu (and lived), octopus, weird mushrooms, sake. I even found my way at the station all by my lonesome. It was an adventure  that I'm glad I took. I was able to look after myself.

I don't know what it is about Japan. I just want to live here. I wish I could stay here longer. This is the place I want to be. I've never felt that before.

Today the lights in the sky looked beautiful. We attended the Atsuta Matsuri and there were fireworks. For brief seconds, the fireworks would shine and light up the sky then dissipate and fade. They lingered for only a moment.

I am enjoying life at the moment. It was very difficult at the beginning. I was able to let go of a lot of things. Things that were holding me back, things that were too painful. I was able to take risks and take charge of the way that I am going. I would ask everyone to abroad. I can't wait to be able to travel elsewhere.